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Saturday, June 13th, 2009
12:56 am	Thank You Rush. Proud swagger out of the schoolyard Waiting for the worlds applause Rebel without a conscience Martyr without a cause Static on your frequency Electrical storm in your veins Raging at unreachable glory Straining at invisible chains And now youre trembling on a rocky ledge Staring down into a heartless sea Cant face life on a razors edge Nothings what you thought it would be All of us get lost in the darkness Dreamers learn to steer by the stars All of us do time in the gutter Dreamers turn to look at the cars Turn around and turn around and turn around Turn around and walk the razors edge Dont turn your back And slam the door on me Its not as if this barricade Blocks the only road Its not as if youre all alone In wanting to explode Someone set a bad example Made surrender seem all right The act of a noble warrior Who lost the will to fight And now youre trembling on a rocky ledge Staring down into a heartless sea Done with life on a razors edge Nothings what you thought it would be No hero in your tragedy No daring in your escape No salutes for your surrender Nothing noble in your fate Christ, what have you done? (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 7th, 2009
8:47 pm	I F***king Love This Song E.S.T Lyrics White Liesat Lyrics Song WordsHomeContactPrivacy PolicySITEMAPE.S.T Lyrics White Lies White Lies Lyrics - E.S.T Song Words Song Words by Artist / Band : White Lies Lyrics Title : E.S.T Available on Album : To Lose My Life Released : January 19, 2008 - Album Music Genre : Indie Rock (Song Data Information from : Wikipedia) The music from episode of Gossip Girl - “In the Realm of the Basses” If you tell me to jump then I'll die In my dreams I'm there I always hoped that I'd learn how to fly In my dreams I'm there You can tie my hands to the walls But you can't tie my dreams to this place I might fall like a rock from your heart But you won't see me fall from grace Fate always loses hope Like electric sparks in my heart Fate always loses hope Now be a good girl and do what you're told If you tell me to jump then I'll die In my dreams I'm there I always hoped that I'd learn how to fly In my dreams I'm there I leave my memoirs in blood on the floor And my fears with the nurse on the stairs I'm only going where you'll be some day So don't say rest in peace in your prayers Fate always loses hope Like electric sparks in my heart Fate always loses hope Now be a good girl and do what you're told I hope you, remember me I hope you, never pretend for me I hope you, remember me I hope you Fate always loses hope Like electric sparks in my heart Fate always loses hope Now be a good girl and do what you're told I hope you, remember me I hope you, never pretend for me I hope you, remember me I hope you, never forget about me I hope you, remember me I hope you, never pretend for me I hope you, remember me (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009
11:59 pm	If You're Close to Me You Know Why I Posted This Dammit - Blink182 It's alright / to tell me / what you think / about me I won't try / to argue / or hold it / against you I know that / you're leaving / you must have / your reasons The season / is calling / your pictures / are falling down The steps that / I retrace / a sad look / on your face The timing / and structure / did you hear / he fucked her? A day late / a buck short / I'm writing / the report I'm losing / and failing / when I move / I'm flailing now And it's happened once again I'll turn to a friend Someone that understands Sees through the master plan But everybody's gone And I've been here for too long To face this on my own Well I guess this is growing up Well I guess this is growing up And maybe / I'll see you / at a movie / sneak preview You'll show up / and walk by / on the arm / of that guy And I'll smile / and you'll wave / we'll pretend / it's okay The charade / it won't last / when he's gone / I won't come back And it's happened once again You'll turn to a friend Someone that understands And sees through the master plan But everybody's gone And you've been here for too long To face this on your own Well I guess this is growing up Well, I guess this is growing up (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 23rd, 2009
9:34 pm	Stuff Sup bitches? Things aren't too bad. Another year of college over waiting for next year so I can have enough cash to make one hell of a down payment on a house and plenty of dinero left over. Again things aren't bad, my ex pulling the the high school book of "Look I have hickey's on my neck" really has upset me but whatever if we look back at the sentense ex is the key word there. Just pisses me off since we broke up I've heard so many different things from where I have no idea if we are friends, were friends *actucally after this last moment I am more than pissed off for once so good job 4 years of dating never made me this upset.* or whatnot. But whatever. Stupid lack of a dating life. I totally gotta find a better way to balance work and play or build a mech. But anyway thats all the bad mojo out of the way. Had Filet mingion tonight ohhhh so good. Gotta give props to those who served for the holiday Monday in the even I forget. Wish I wasn't sunburned but walking 12 miles was good and that kinda the abrided everything here. I am really fucked up over I am going to be 30 in about two weeks. I feel like I am a failure as well I am single, live at home and the like. But then agian I am saving cash hard for a house not a stupid apartment *If I can afford the fucked up tax structure in this state tax the people that work so we can keep adding to the unwed teenage moms and drug addicts woo!*. But yeah I am scared to death but deep down happy too. Anyway, just wanted to vent and say hey to all. Me (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 15th, 2009
12:18 am	A hot and windy august afternoon Has the trees in constant motion With a flash of silver leaves As they're rocking in the breeze The boy lies in the grass with one blade Stuck between his teeth A vague sensation quickens In his young and restless heart And a bright and nameless vision Has him longing to depart You move me --- You move me --- With your buildings and your eyes Autumn woods and winter skies You move me --- You move me --- Open sea and city lights Busy streets and dizzy heights You call me --- You call me --- The fawn-eyed girl with sun-browned legs Dances on the edge of his dream And her voice rings in his ears Like the music of the spheres The boy lies in the grass, unmoving Staring at the sky His mother starts to call him As a hawk goes soaring by The boy pulls down his baseball cap And covers up his eyes Too many hands on my time Too many feelings --- Too many things on my mind When I leave I dont know What Im hoping to find When I leave I dont know What Im leaving behind... (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2009
10:20 pm	Snicker. So sick of the hobos always begging for change I don't like how I gotta work and And they just sit around and get paid I hate all of the people who can't drive their cars. Bitch you better get outta the way Before I start falling apart I hate how my wife is always up my ass She always wants to buy brand new things But I don't have the cash. I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! How come I never get laid, nice guys always lose. How could she have another headache There's always some kind of excuse I still hate my job, my boss is a dick "I don't get paid nearly enough To put up with all of your shit" I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! Yeah! I hate that I can't tell when a girl's underage, You know, I tell her she's a nice piece of ass, Then her daddy punches me in the face So if you're pissed like me Bitches, here's what you gotta do Put your middle fingers up in the air Go on and say "Fuck you!" I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right There's no end in sight I hate my life! So much at stake, can't catch a break I hate my life No, it's nothing new hear " it sucks to be you" I fuckin hate my life (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 11th, 2009
9:17 pm	On the turning away From the pale and downtrodden And the words they say Which we wont understand Dont accept that whats happening Is just a case of others suffering Or youll find that youre joining in The turning away Its a sin that somehow Light is changing to shadow And casting its shroud Over all we have known Unaware how the ranks have grown Driven on by a heart of stone We could find that were all alone In the dream of the proud On the wings of the night As the daytime is stirring Where the speechless unite In a silent accord Using words you will find are strange And mesmerized as they light the flame Feel the new wind of change On the wings of the night No more turning away From the weak and the weary No more turning away From the coldness inside Just a world that we all must share Its not enough just to stand and stare Is it only a dream that therell be No more turning away? (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 10th, 2009
11:14 pm	A Whiter Shade of Pale is an awesome song. (Comment on this)
10:55 pm	Growl Being mildly drunk and looking at old post really isn't the best of ideas is it? Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 27th, 2008
10:06 pm	Why? Is it when I am drinking there is nobody to talk to!? Oh well, this shall be remedied by moving out yes... (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 21st, 2008
10:27 pm	Sorry for the Lack of Updates Sorry all. Things aren't too bad. College is over for 08 getting ready for 09. About 16 inches of snow here or more, probably closers to 24 but too lazy to measure it. The Rogue handles snow really well which makes me happy. A bit drunk but less so now that I've drank 32oz of water. Now I need to pee stupid body functions. Just remembering stuff oddly just trips I've took, from Christy and I visiting Stew and Nicky, to Montreal to VA Beach and NYC or just my random trips to Clarkson to see everyone or just Joe and co. Oh and Itunes. Hope all are well and have a good X-mas! Me Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 14th, 2008
10:36 am	Happy Things are not too bad right now. Busting tail at two jobs agian. Had a fun little trip to NY Friday where I got Coldstone Creamery Ice Cream and a pile of CD's and some good booze. Drank alot last night and oddly I am remembering chunks of it but was fun. Vented some stuff I maybe should have keep quiet on but I feel better for saying something even if it was rather vague. So got my first offer for my Transformers 5200 cash 6200 store cred *which since I want to stop collecting really doesn't help me much*. But 5200 is pretty good. Only problem being I cover shipping. So I am going to try one other site and see what I get. Not sure about ebay. Thought about it but seems like way too much time and energy. Did some work for class today and that is going good except for totally spacing on where an option in Word 07 was but hey I got to show my class how to use the help feature :) Hope all are well! Me Current Mood: giggly (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 6th, 2008
8:37 am	Stuff So something that has been handy for me latly is not keeping my feelings on stuff bottled up or only talking about them online. Course the one flaw with this is when something annoys/upsets me I tend to ramble but hey I feel better! Don't know why I felt the need to post this but did :) So already made 125 bucks off of selling my transformers collection sold 3 figures for 50,50 and 25 dollars respectively. Got 55 megs of pictures to send to Bigbadtoystore on Monday. If I get enough cash from this I am so putting it in my bank and looking for a nice small comfy apartment in town. (Comment on this)
Friday, September 5th, 2008
12:10 pm	Growl Today started good, gave an exam at college. That went well. But now sitting around doing nothing while I wait for my dad to get home so I can help him lift things back onto the deck. He does a great job of not thinking "Hey maybe everyone else made fucking plans!". So instead of enjoying my day off, I am sitting here doing nothing. Just annoyed right now, this shit is so why I am hoping to be out of here sooner than later. Just grr. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 29th, 2008
10:53 pm	Happy! So college has started and things are going pretty damn well. Class is going good, my students seem like a good flock and things at Hannaford aren't even that bad. Found saying "Oh no you didn't ." To stupid customers is perfect retail therapy. Car is running great and I am already getting like 28 MPG for an AWD I am insanely happy. Taught today then hung with my friend Joe. Saw Christy at the mall as she works there now *Funny consdering how much she hates the place but it is the Holloween store so that makes sense*. But I am insanely happy she is well. Really sans any emotional bitches I've had the last few months. Anyway, think that was all I really wanted to say right now. Hope all are well and have a great Labor Day! Me Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Monday, August 25th, 2008
8:52 pm	Be Afraid So I am thinking of selling my whole Transformer/Gundam/Gi Joe/Macross/Star Wars/Go Bots/Zoids collection. Yes you read that right, just for some reason it's not meaning as much to me anymore. I really don't know why either. So I am going to try fielding some offers for everything and then maybe seek out offers for indivdualized stuff. Oh yeah college started back up today that was fun. Yay to teaching. Really not much else to report weekend was fucked up and somehow I've ran into every fucking Ex except for Christy in the last 2 weeks. Though the I am mildly pissed side did smile at how two of them have 3 kids and retarded boyfriends/husbands and one seems to be nearing 300 pounds. Evil I know but for what was done to me I think it's horribly amusing. Bastard I am becoming. Still in the case of one woman I didn't see her for 10 fucking years I mean the hell? Really thats it, loving the new car, back to working a lot and thats it. Gotta start weight training again as well I am getting a might pudgy myself heh. Stupid summer of depressive eating habits. Oh well. Hope all of you I give a damn about are well. Me Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 14th, 2008
2:06 am	Things That Annoy Me and a Great CD Idea! Not feeling to bad, but just need to vent on a few things than anger the fuck out of me. Customers- Yeah I know working in Customer Service this is a bad thing to have here. But after being yelled at by a customer who couldn't read fucking signs and somehow crushing her avacado this makes all customers enter my shit list. Sorry, you had a shitty day and can't ready that lemons are 3 for a dollar and limes are 3 for two dollars. Not my problem you don't need to raise your fucking voice at me. Only 3 people can do that to me, my family and well if I had one partner otherwise, consider your jaw a viable target if you want to scream at me like I am a child or dog. Relationships- So as I've figured out the whole breaking up thing is the suck. Especally since I have a knack for the girls that give me the it's not you it's me, cheated on me or somehow I cared too much BS. But nothing annoys me as much as when I hear from a married friend how her husband bitched at her for having a small belly. Now mind you this lass is pretty cute and is a very petite women. She just as some fat on her belly from having 2 kids. Seems her husband was told by his parents that his wife was turning fat like her mom or some bullshit. Now idontknow about any of you here. But hell I actually got into an arguement with my mom after Christy and I broke up and I told her about it and she bad mouthed Christy. Not in the hateful way but the you fucked my son over way and I even got mad about that as well I cared about her regaurdless. Now it seems this guy totally agreed with his family and even told his wife this which resulted in while hanging with a friend of mine today consoling her over this. So yeah. That just grrr. Fucking people. Now that I got that out of my system. In better news I test drove a Nissan Rogue today. Damn it was fun to drive, now if I can get the right price I will be a happy monkey and hanging with Joe, Jerry and Melissa was fun sans the whole other friend and her husband stuff. Just I am really finding people to be more and more unbelieveable. Oh yeah, so at work the other day I started coming up with an idea for a fun metal CD about working in retail. Much in the line of Zimmer's Hole, Dethklok, Austrian Death Machine and others. Band name Customer Service title CD Customer Service? And a track listing, you may laugh more if you ever worked at retail. 1 Electric Store Manager of Satan's Dominion 2 Your EBT Card Won't Work in Hell 3 Payday Blues 4 It's the First of the Month Now Die 5 Deli Dicking 6 Meat Room Slaughter 7 The Liqour Store is My Friend 8 Hungover and Working On Express 9 Self-Scan Suicide 10 Rancid Smell of Putrid Waste from the Back Room 11 Babies Baking in the Bakery 12 It's Christmas and Your still an Asshole 13 You're Wrong; I am Right 14 Horrible Dismemberment in Produce 15 Satan Worshipping at the Service Center 16 Your Total is 666 17 The Working Useless 18 Resident Eldery 19 A Flamethrower and Bottle of Pills from the Pharmacy And last but not least 20 Ode to the Cash Registers Clarkson Joe already said he wants to buy this if a bunch of friends of mine and I can pull this off hehe. But thats it hope all of you are good! Me Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 2nd, 2008
5:20 pm	BTW Unfriended a ton of posts from the last year. No reason to keep them private anymore. (Comment on this)
5:03 pm	So this is a run down of my vacation which started on 7/27 til today. Sat 7/26- Not alot had to work from 6-230. That was the suck. Opening has never been anything I particulary enjoy except for I don't need to deal with any people. After that picked up an expensive Tequilla for the week, went home and chilled with the family had a nice BBQ Steak dinner and booze lots of booze. Sun 7/27- Hung out with my friend Joe, when to Nissan and looked at the Rogue which is more and more becoming my car of choice I think I will go visit there Tuesday. Hung with him then him and our friend Ben and wandered the local mall. After that went home and chilled with the fam, crab cakes and stuffed mushrooms for dinner then milled around on the net then sleept. Mon 7/28- Got up showered and went to Castleton to ask some questions and pick out a book for my class this year. Found the book I like and even better they had a teachers edition and the like right there so I was pretty well set in no time. Got together with my friend Chris and we went to Burlington for the day. Fun times, went to Williston and milled about Toys R Us, Best Buy and their uber Wal-Mart. After that went too Church street to look at stores and Chris picked up some stuff from Quarterstaff Games. He got the latest expansions for Munchkin. I didn't find must that I felt I needed, but the new edition of the old school battletech and some crazy Anime boardgame looked neat. Had dinner at the Ri-Ra, great Irish resturant on Chruch Street. We got the Irish Potatoe Cakes and Chris got Mac-n-Cheese and some crazy sandwich, while I got the BBQ Guniness Burger. *Drool*, got deserts too, Apple Tart for me and he got the the rasberry lava choclate cake. Hit up University Mall and got Machine Girl at Hot Topic and an Invader Zim shirt. Headed back to his place to drink beer and what Machine Girl which was gerat BTW then play Ninja Gaiden 2 then home for the night. Tue 7/29- Hung out with Joe's wife Melissa to play much Rock Band and drink Tequilla, that was about it, picked up a bottle of Herruda Tequilla for us and Sailer Jerry Rum for Joe. Joe got home work, we did a few odd things then back to their place for Rock Band, Nachos and Booze. Josh Nachos BTW the one fucking thing I can make that doesn't end in fire. Wed 7/30- Hung with Joe and we went to Glens Falls, good times hit the Toys R Us in Lake George then went to Saratoga Springs, lunch at Arby's and hit up the assorted malls there. Joe found a copy of the Lost Boys two at Wal-Mart there. After that we walked through Saratoga Springs and had Coldstone Creamery, oh good stuff that was! I had the Coffee Lovers and he had the Perfect Peanut Butter Cup. After that we hit the Avation Mall which was good as I found some Transformers I wanted at that Target. After that we hit up Lake George and wanted around for a few hours and played many video games and hung up flyers for his Wrestling show. Went back to his place and chilled for a bit as he played Overlord then went home. Thur 7/31- Got up cleaned my car. Hardcore, 2x washed the outside, waxed it and detailed the interior and got most of the crap off the rugs with cleaner and vacuumed. Then hung with Gordon and Kammie *Also known as Christy's Brother and Sister-in-law.* which was fun and more on the Christy part later. Had some wine and chilled chatted and played Munchkin Cuthulu then got foodage at Wendys' before going to Joe's to play the World of Warcraft boardgame which my team lost but whatever. After that Rock Band then home for the night. Fri 7/1- Hung out with my friend Chris most of the day and played Soul Caliber 4 which I actually enjoyed, I really hated the last Soul Caliber as the difficulty was somewhere between hard and the fuck! But this was fun racked up a bunch of endings and got to see X-Box Live matchmaking in action. After that I went to Sports Legends for dinner and booze then hung with my friends Ben and Shanna and drank until I decided to head off. Then just drove around for a few hours out of boredom with my stereo blasting. Putzed through Clarendon, West Rutland, Proctor, Rutland and Middletown Springs *Not exactly in that order though*. Went home and slept. Today just chilling and writing this for fun. So today will be the last time I mention Christy on here I think. As well it's time for me to get my head out of my ass and move on. I am not thrilled about losing a friend of 10 years but what can I do you know if she's not interested either and feels as though it would be some from of psycho torture. That and Gordon telling me I am handling thing honorably didn't hurt just still sucks but whatever gotta keep on moving on. Just would feel better if over the last 2 weeks I didn't run into every other ex that royally fucked me over. Maybe in the end I just gotta stop being the nice guy I am not sure. Besides, between Castleton Starting and Hannaford I should have more than enough to keep and hell I am still alive and kicking so that has to stand up for something. Later folks. Me (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 26th, 2008
7:18 pm	Son of A! Sigh, Stupid me thinking, hey remembering fun times last summer would be a great idea. Now I feel like poo. Stupid me. But at least Google Earth gives a damn neat view of NYC. (Comment on this)